it’s possible the title is a slightly exaggerated, i haven’t killed anyone. yet. but boy does it sound like a good idea. there is just SOO much to be pissed off about right now, i don’t even know where to start! i have a sneaking suspicion i’ll be bitching quite a bit over the next day or two.
i would really like to go off about my family right now – my mother is infuriating, her sisters are morons (2 of the 3 anyway), i just really don’t like most of the folks i’m related to. i think i’m supposed to say i love them, i just don’t always like them. but let’s be honest, (because honestly, no one but me is reading this!), i don’t really think i love them either. i mean, what does it matter that we have a branch in common on the family tree? who cares if we have other relatives in common – that’s ALL we have in common!
the annual family picnic is coming up. i’m supposed to go. it’s the first time i’ve been in the state for a picnic in about 7 years. not that i haven’t seen them all – i’ve seen several of them quite recently, all most all of them last winter. but here’s the problem. i mean, aside from just not wanting to go. they’ve given me a hard time about being vegetarian for years, so i don’t even want to think what they’ll have to say about me being vegan. and there will be some fruit and green salad – otherwise, lots and lots of stuff i don’t eat and that i don’t even really like to be around.
it’s hard enough to be around my friends when all i want to do is talk about the latest ridiculous thing the government has done or another way they are persecuting animal rights activists. it’s super tough to not remind them that the burger they are eating used to have big brown trusting eyes that watched her friends murdered in front of her, watched the slaughterhouse workers as they slit her throat because she wasn’t “stunned” properly and was therefore fully conscious while they cut her, and very possibly while they pulled the skin from her head. or that the chicken is actually a dead shit-covered e.coli bird.
and i want to tell them that there are numerous people in prison, right now, for “conspiracy” to commit crimes – not for commiting crimes but for thinking about them, and even more in prison for all sorts of shit – which is actually the next blog. so, when i have to struggle to not be such a bright fucking ray of sunshine around my friends – the people i choose to be around, the ones i love and like, how am i supposed to be civil and pleasant around people that i’m not particularly fond of? people that could never in a million years comprehend giving up steak just to keep a few silly animals from dying – i mean, that’s what they’re there for.
even my mother went off on me yesterday when i made a comment about what people think of “us” as in animal-rights/animal-lover/vegetarian/vegan types. “oh, so you’re one of them now? you’re grouping yourself in with those people? so she will clearly be listening to anything i say, just in case it involves animals/vegans/PETA/e.coli/famine/global warming/pesticides/hormones/etc.
Bruce, from PETA, was here for a book signing awhile ago, and discussing how to best advocate for animals. and he would probably be totally disappointed by my attitude about the whole thing. he recommends being nice, not combative, willing to talk and answer questions without preaching or getting irritated. and i should totally be able to do that. but i just don’t want to!
so there. just one reason i feel like beating the shit out of someone today.
